The Big Cheat

So, if you've read Saturday's blog- you know Hank and I knowingly cheated last night! So, for this blog I will address the cheat.

I had 3 pieces of Lupi's pepperoni pizza- no crust though- I felt as though that made it better and a little bit of salad with vinaigrette. I also had 2 glasses of red wine.

So here is the deal, I've heard that I would feel terrible (I was kind of hoping I was), I didn't. Not at all (I think I have pizza in my blood). BUT, I also wasn't crying because I was so happy I was having pizza and wine like I thought I would. It was good, I enjoyed it. I don't feel the urge to have to have it again sometime soon, which I was afraid of. And, strangely enough I think I missed the wine more, haha. That being said, I think the wine made me have crappy sleep. Plus, I had dreams all night that I was cheating and eating all kinds of bad food. Thinking I might have felt a little bad about it.

So, here I am the day after. I think I have a good focus to finish these next 3 weeks. Breakfast = eggs with spinach, snack a larabar (my new favorite thing), lunch spinach salad at mojo with ground beef, red peppers, tomatoes, green onions & guac for my dressing. Went for a walk for the activity. Snacked on roasted salted almonds during the movie (the popcorn smelled really good-- but that's okay- although I think it may have been the first time ever Hank went to the movies without getting popcorn!). I'm boiling pre-made paleo right now for dinner, chicken, steak, some sort of white veggie puree that's not half bad, and spaghetti squash, strawberries (small portions of each- not very hungry).

I know I promised experimenting- sorry I never got around to it today -opted for going to a movie instead (we saw Haywire, it was an interesting movie). I will try to experiment some this week. I have a delicious dessert idea and a good looking recipe for paleo meatballs! Since I am cutting down on the greek yogurt and am getting tired of eggs, I do plan to make paleo oatmeal this week (after tomorrow, I need to go grocery shopping), I will let y'all know how it goes.

At church today, we discussed the parable of the mustard seed, which has a lot to do with patience. Something I'm wishing I had a little more of last night and I guess in life in general-- its easy to want things and to want them now, but oh well, we also learn and we grow a little each day. Nothing moves fast and nothing is perfect- its all about the journey, and the journey has obstacles, as Ryan said over time, your struggle becomes your ministry!

Mt 13:31-32 Here is another illustration Jesus used: "The Kingdom of Heaven is like a mustard seed planted in a field. It is the smallest of all seeds, but it becomes the largest of garden plants; it grows into a tree, and birds come and make nests in its branches."

I am learning to focus on having patience- with this diet, with a lot of things- at work, in wedding planning, at the gym, and more. I am grateful that I've become much more open to the concept of learning and not knowing everything and not having the answers- and having the patience for the time it takes to grow.

Week 4, here we go!